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Complains

2012-02-08T23:34:00.001+08:00

Blogging from my phone now. I actually have things to blog about. 1)trip to uss with BFF 2)bday dinner after work with MSZ. But have been feeling too tired after work these few days. And maybe because a lil lazy too=x

I really don't get how I can be so tired just sitting in the office for the whole day. I rarely use the computer too. I just face papers and more papers everyday. I'm already so sick of this routine and I honestly cannot wait for it to end. Only a month there and I already feel like giving up. I wonder how will I be able to survive when I really step into the working world. but anw, I took a leave this Friday cause I feel that I need it. Sleep in, do my own stuff and feel like I'm living my life.

Hope tmr will be easy to get through and time flies faster than lightning. but I don't see how is it going to be possible with the stuff to do being do boring or even that I have nothing to do at all.

不存在的情人就不会离开我身旁

2012-02-02T00:55:00.001+08:00

Didn't really like this song at first. But after listening to it a few times, i have come to like this song. Especially the lyrics, gosh.

不想面对我的痴狂不想正视我的荒唐
假装没受过伤所有痛一个人承担
不愿意自己揭穿这是我对自己的惩罚
不存在的情人就不会离开我身旁

Running out of titles

2012-01-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

Met up with some 1010 peeps last friday after work! Though it was just a really simple meetup- dinner tgt and chilled at coffee bean after that, i really enjoyed myself that night with them(: Quality time indeed. I want more of these meetups!

Went house-visiting during the weekends.

I also went to the flea at scape with my sister on saturday. I was inspired by the thrift hauls i watched on youtube. So i wanted to go 'thrifting' too! And i got some nice stuff for lil money :D I think most of them were second hand though. But as long as it doesn't look worn out and it's been washed, it doesn't really bother me getting second hand items.
Look what me and my sister got!

Oh, and me and my family played mahjong ytd. I won 1 time but lost the most cause i only got 1 tai while when my parents win they got like at least 3 tai -.-

Boring CNY

2012-01-24T23:00:00.000+08:00

Happy CNY!

Cny this year is pretty boring. Didn't do any house visiting at all for chu yi & chu er. So for the first day, i pretty much just rotted at home and watched shows. Then i decided it's too boring and i dragged my fam out for a movie. We watched 'The Great Magician'. I think the movie's really good! Though it's seriously confusing. But it's still funny at the same time. Then after dinner, my sis and i went to watch 'We Not Naughty'. I think it's just so-so only? And it did not made me cry. Idky, but i never cried while watching Jack Neo's movie before though i know a lot of ppl do. I hardly cry watching shows anw.

As for today, my fam went to a temple to pray. I went to 求签 and got a 上签! It somehow did make me feel much more comforted and idk how to describe how i feel when i see that it's a good one. Cause if you dk, i'm seriously insecure and afraid of what is going to happen in the near future. Actually, i've gotten a lot of signs that things are going to be okay. Maybe not how i want it to be but things will still be okay ite. And i sure hope so too.

After that, we went back to cwp to have a super filling dinner at Hot Tomato.

Oh! And i went to play badminton with my sister cause we had nothing better to do. Long time no exercise and i feel so weak :/

That's all for my first 2 days of cny. Hope yours has been good!(:

Back to work tmr, nooooooooooo :(

Bye Bye Long Hair!

2012-01-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

I finally cut my hair short! I've wanted to cut my hair short for a very long time but i didn't have to courage to for idk what reason. So ytd when i finally decided i wanted to change my hairstyle and try a short-do, i went to cut it immediately today before i can change my mind. And i'm really satisfied with my new hairstyle!(:

Friends

2012-01-18T22:59:00.000+08:00

Okay, that picture of my lunch has been at the top of this page for too long and it's time to push it down!

This is a bit late=x Super mini 1010 meetup last weekend. It's doesn't even look like a 1010 meetup anw, lol. Had a great catching up and feasting session with the rest though(: There's most prob going to be another one at suhui's place soon and i hope there will be more ppl so that it will be a genuine 1010 gathering.

I can doze off at work like how i doze off halfway doing homework. LOL. Okay, i didn't really doze off but almost. It's not like i have nothing to do really. But i guess it's just really boring.

I was thinking these few days if i should continue working there if they extent the contract. I don't expect them to extent it but let's just assume. I like it there, the ppl, the envt and i don't really mind doing what im doing even though it makes me want to sleep. It's just that i can't fit in there (therefore, i secretly thank god that i'm only a temp=x).

And then i wonder, if it's my problem. Cause this is not the first time i encounter problems like this. I guess it is right? But maybe there's bound to be ppl that no matter how hard you try to 'click' with you just can't. Then i think, why should i even try so hard? Because to me, i feel that if i need to try so hard to connect with a person. Then it'll be hard for us to be close. I mean like those who i consider close with, i don't even need to try and we just hit off and connect. It's just something natural. Of course, to mantain that does require effort. Im just talking about the first connection here. But don't get me wrong, can't be close doesn't equal to can't talk, don't like or can't be friends at all. I wish i could express myself better but no matter how i tried to phrase it, it just comes off wrong and totally not what im trying to say at all.

So that's why i have so little close friends. I don't even need all my fingers. But to me, that's enough and i love every single one of them. Of course, i still like to make friends and i consider myself friendly. But i guess im just not social-able.

Since we are on the topic of friends....

Bored at work

2012-01-12T12:38:00.001+08:00

Hiii~ I'm currently lunching-in in the office now. I feel like even the sound of me crunching my veggies is also too loud. LOL.

What's wrong?

2012-01-09T08:15:00.001+08:00

I think there's smth wrong with me.

I think I've been going back to the past too much lately. Sometimes on purpose, sometimes not. Idky i did that either. Probably because there's too much alone train and bus rides? Hahah. And I still feel so suffocated everytime after that.

I feel like I need a good cry. But I just can't. Because there's no tears. And there's no reason to.

So pathetic.

Update!

2012-01-07T23:56:00.002+08:00

Opps, i forgot to reupload the video last time.

Hm, life has gone back being routine-ish. Everyday at work, i scan and file and scan and file somemore. Sounds easy, and it's in fact easy. Just that there were loads, everyday. It's not that i don't like it though, i actually secretly enjoy being busy. Not just for work, but in general. Is that weird?

Anw, i just did my nails. Super girly and pretty and i like it! It's expensive though :/ But it should be able to last a super long time so i guess it should be okay =x

I also redo-ed my bulletin board.

I have this habit of redo-ing my board every year and filling them with quotes for my inspiration purposes. Hahah. This time, i added in a lil bit of fashion too. Cause i like it :B

Oh, and im super addicted to the show 'Queen Seon Duk'. It's seriously very nice. Don't laugh at me, but because i was curious about the real story, i went to google it 0_0 Yeah, ikr. LOL. And i found out that they did twist the story a bit by adding the love element inside. Commercialised, but it did made the story more interesting i guess?And IU sang this song?! I didn't know until a few mins ago before i'm typing this post :O Cause the version they played was sang by some other guy. Just play the video and listen to her awesome voice and the awesome song.

This post is so random. But i wanted to share this. The other day my colleagues were talking about 2012 and the end of the world. And i learnt another saying that the world is going to 'end' in the sense that there will be a lot of natural disasters happening, not sure if it's at the same day and time though. But if we don't go overseas, we should be save cause apparently, Singapore is free from natural disasters. What do you think?

OHMYGOD

2012-01-03T22:58:00.001+08:00

I just realized I accidentally deleted my previous post with my phone. OMG. It was a super long post with pictures and all my goals for 2012! I want to cry now:( Dammit!!!

I shall re-post the pictures since i've uploaded and resized them, for my keepsake purposes and to help my poor memory. 31/12/11At Harry's Bar @ EsplandeWaiting for fireworks2012!

And my goals for 2012. Yes, i call them goals and not resolutions and yes i do think they make a diff to me, somehow. Hahah:B
1. Save at least 1dollar a day!(Other than my pay of course)
2. Stop taking money from my parents and pay for my own expenses
3. Finish a book at least once a month
4. Pass my music exams
5. Have the strength and bravery to overcome obstacles that i may face this year
and the last one's a secret(:

My comp's being such an ass. One moment my keyboard is perfectly fine and now it decides to act up again. I cannot use 'a', 'n', 'b', the right arrow and the delete button. So i have to keep copy and pasting the letters. 'a' and 'n' some more, the 2 letters you see in almost every word=.=

Hello 2012! Please be nice(:

2011-12-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

It's already time to say 'bye bye' to 2011?! Is it true that the older you get, the faster the time passes? I guess it is.

2011 wasn't exactly a good year for me. It was a tough one in fact. Probably because of A levels. It stressed me out like nothing else. I've never cried so frequently because of studies before. I've never felt like there might be really no future for me before. I've never felt so worthless before. But I felt it all this year. So I guess that pretty much explains why I felt this year was tough huh.

But apart from that, all the other aspects of my life were okay. I still have all my very much loved family and friends who stood by me. And I also reunited with my BFF(: So i guess although it was a bad year, there is still something that I feel thankful about. And truthfully, although I felt that there were more downs than ups this year, I'm still thankful for the whole experience and people who pulled me through it. I'd like to think that no matter how anything ends, I've still gained smth good out of it.

2012 is going to be another life- changing year. But honestly, I don't know what to expect. What I wanted to happen, I don't even dare to expect. What I expect to be happen, I find it a bit hard to accept. I just hope for 2012 to be a smooth-sailing one and that it will be a good year for all the people I love. I also hope that missys will be able to spend more time together and DAWMSZ will not drift apart.

Probably not going to do new year resolution this year. Isn't it all the same? Good grades, lose fat, be more happy etc etc. and which one comes true? Lol. Okay, so let's just leave it at that.

Happy 2012 everyone!P.S I wanted to post significant pictures and also the missys vlog. But I wasn't able to use the comp ytd and today. I'm posting this using my phone!

Life... ?

2011-12-30T11:59:00.000+08:00

Fourth day of work and I'm getting the hang of it(i guess). And my workload really did increased. LOL. But it's okay. I still feel that it's better than sitting there and doing nothing but feeling like I was of no help at all. Now that I think of it. I think it's actually quite a nice environment to work in. The ppl there are friendly and the work is all the same and not very difficult. Oh and it is a mandarin-speaking envt. Eases me immediately. Hahah. But im seriously a klutz. I feel like I'm bound to make a mistake everyday or smth. Today, when I was shredding papers, the papers were stuck halfway=_= and I was like OMG :O then I tried to get the paper out but the shreds come overflowing out instead. I was so helpless and luckily, one of my colleague came to saved my day. Lol.

I was thinking to myself after work today. Is that all there is to life? Study like mad so that you could get yourself a job and work like mad after that? It makes life seems so meaningless to me. But what is there to be done, it's just life, ikr. And it made me think twice if I really want to major in business or accountancy to be specific. My colleagues learnt that I want to study accountancy and all of them warned me of the stress that I'm going to get. Actually, I feel that it's not the stress that is making me think twice. It's the mundane life that I would be leading with that job. So anw, I've decided that I want to learn makeup and seriously consider it as my backup career or who knows, my main career? Hahah, I know that it's naive to think that everything will go nicely as planned. But I seriously feel that I need to learn smth that I have passion and interest in that can be a career if it is needed to.

Christmas Vlog- DAWMSZ ver.

2011-12-28T21:54:00.002+08:00

As promised(:

The video is too long, so i had to split into 2 parts. But i can upload videos that are more than 15 mins now! Heheh. Idky either.

Christmas with Missys & Boxing day with BFF!

2011-12-27T23:52:00.001+08:00

I've seen a lot of these videos and i've been wanting to do one since forever. But previously because of school, i rarely got to dress up since i can't even go out. But christmas gave me the chance to do so(:

(This was unintentional. We totally LOL-ed when we saw that we did the face tgt)

The rest of the pictures are here: click

On christmas day, missys went out together to celebrate without exception!<3 We went to Toa Payoh to sing first and the price is really quite affordable there. Now that there are more ktvs around with affordable price, i wonder why kbox and partyworld etc. survive and compete with them. Maybe their more complete song list? Hahah. After that, we went to Vintage Delicafe @ Bugis to have our dinner. The ambience there was alright. But the service is really good. They will attend to you patiently and even asked if you enjoyed your food. That's so rare to find nowadays! Oh, and their food is not bad too. I realise i eat the same thing every christmas for some reason, LOL. Must rmb to change to smth new next year.

Went to Orchard to see & take pictures with the christmas lightings after dinner.

After the whole day, we went home... and met up again! LOL. Had a stayover at Eileen's house. We played a mad game brought by Szehui and we did our best friend tag :B I had lots and lots of fun with them for the whole night. At four, we went to had macbreakfast and had h2h talk during which. It's always nice to have h2h talks with your girlfriends<3 This is probably the longest christmas we spent together(:

And the next day, i met up with my BFF!!! I haven't seen her for so long and i missed her so much! We went to Bugis to catch a movie and eat. Watched Sherlock Holmes. Am awed. The effects are so awesome. I rarely enjoy action-packed movies, so this must be really nice. Hahah :B Am not only awed by the effects, but also Sherlock Holmes intelligence. Must go watch it kay, people! After the movie, we went to have korean BBQ. It's my first time trying that and it's quite nice!(: Walked and shopped around bugis street after dinner until almost all shops are closing.

Im really happy that we finally got to meet up. And the thing that im most glad about is that we still can talk endlessly even after we have not seen each other for so long(: We took really little photos that day:/ It's okay, we'll take more the next time we meet right right?(:

Anw, today was my first day of work. It was okayyyy. Just that im too tired due to lack of sleep. Sort letters also can sort until i almost fall asleep. And there isn't really much for me to do so today was pretty slack. Hope tmr i'll do better and also maybe more things to do? I feel so weird and paiseh sitting there doing nth :S

P.S: The vlogs are coming up soon!(:

Pre-Xmas with DAWMSZ & Merry Xmas!

2011-12-25T01:25:00.003+08:00

The rest of the pictures are here: click

Yesterday i had a really fun night with DAWMSZ! We had a nice 'reunion' dinner at Creations Cafe and then we went to chill, drink, play games and have our gift exchange at Harry's Bar @ CHIJMES. CHIJMES is a really pretty place!

I pretty much just summarised our day in a sentence! Haha! But i will post up the vlog soon to make it up, wait for it :P Oh, and i got a massive headache after the drink and i almost wanted to puke in the MRT. But of course i didn't(: Hate how i always got these terrible headache and want-to-puke feeling every time after drinking:( Anw, besides that, i still had a really really good time with these bunch of fun ppl! So glad that i've made another group of life-long friends<3

I spent my Christmas eve with my family<3(without my brother, sadly:/). Went to flea@scape as we are setting a booth there. After the whole day, we went to have our xmas dinner at Seoul Garden Hotpot which newly opened at Cine. Feels good to be spending my Christmas eve with them(:

Oh, and lastly, i found my job!!! Somebody up there heard my prayers! The pay is not bad and the working envt seems okay too. At least my supervisors(if i dint get it wrong) seems to be very friendly and nice(:

Lastly, i wish you, the one that's reading this blog now a MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

Addicted

2011-12-23T01:50:00.000+08:00

Another video for your entertainment! I know i've been too addicted and thus too consistent with my videos. But i still have a few videos planned and coming up soon. Heheh.
Tmr im meeting up with DAWMSZ for our Christmas celebration. It's been sometime since we ALL 6 met up so im excited(:

8 Songs In 6 mins

2011-12-22T00:56:00.000+08:00

Our feeble attempt at trying to sing and uploading it to youtube. Hope it wasn't too bad? Stay till the end for bloopers!(:

First Individual Video

2011-12-20T12:58:00.004+08:00

Ugh, i hate it when youtube gives me retarded screenshot=.=
I was contemplating really hard if i should put this up, but then i thought since i had alr done it, what the heck, i should just do it, right? Hahah. I think it's quite beneficial for me to record myself talking in English so i know how i always speak like. And i realised i use 'um' and 'and then' a lotttttttt. I edited some of them out so there isn't as much as it should be that you heard. So now i know, and i'll learn to cut them down when speaking. Woah, sudd this seems educational, LOL. Oh anw, just fyi, because i was busy contemplating whether to put it up or not, the 'today' isn't exactly today anymore.

So i went for an interview just now earlier in the morning and coincidentally, zy was also having her interview at the same time as me but at a diff building though. So after the interview, we met up for a lil while and went back tgt. I'm currently waiting for time to pass till my next interview. Though the pay is just so-so, i hope that i'll still succeed. *Prays*

This Is RenYi!

2011-12-20T01:24:00.001+08:00

Awesome Song

2011-12-18T02:18:00.000+08:00

认识你也许我就足够了缘分的深浅我都不管了可能你感动也看不见我心如刀割, 哪怕很痛过至少就不算错过

See The Pictures Move!

2011-12-17T17:01:00.001+08:00

Some overdued gifs in my phone.

Im so bored :(

Teal

2011-12-14T12:06:00.000+08:00

(Outfit of the day for an interview & my current nails[For Audrey- China Glaze].)
Today is finally my stay home day. Maybe not really cause i still have piano lesson later on. But for the most part i'll be at home so i guess it still counts. So i've quitted the selling hats job just yesterday cause i am currently looking for an admin job and i want to be able to start immediately if i am needed to. Also, i am not suitable for sales jobs though most of the jobs i had were sales/promoting type. That's why im very certain now that im not cut out for it. Perhaps because of my personality, im not a persuasive person in anyway im sure most of my friends know that. If i were to argue with anyone, the probability of me losing would be very high. I also found out that i don't really like jobs which i have to come into contact with lots of random ppl because i don't really like to talk to strangers unless its for socialising(?) like making friends in school etc. I know every job requires contacting people in one way or another and the job that i know have the least of this requirement is office job. So im pretty sure even my future career will also be an office job. Anw, im still in the midst of finding a job and im hoping that i'll be able to find one before December ends. *crossing my fingers*

Btw, i really can't wait for christmas to come. I've alr planned all my outfits and bought most of the presents. Heheh, i know im fast :B I noticed that this year lots of ppl bought and got ready their christmas presents early so i guess im not the only one :P But the main reason for my excitement is that i'll be celebrating with ALL of my favourite people, from primary to jc!(: Can't waittttttt!

It's the night of the night

2011-12-06T21:35:00.007+08:00

The rest of the pictures are here (click)

D&D yesterday! It was pretty okay i feel. Maybe a lil different from sec sch one. But it's still fun to see everyone dressed up and to people watch. And i was telling Suhui that the next time that we will be all dressed up and sitting in a ballroom will be one of our wedding alr. It's quite scary isn't it? To realise that we have all really grown up. But i think im a very lucky girl to have so many good friends who grew up with me and im thankful for that(: So anw, the programmes and the food were okay and the human train at the end really brought back memories during the orientation 2 years ago. It was my fav part of orientation. I didn't join the human train though cause my heels were killing me :/

After D&D, we went to top one for overnight K session. We sang from 12mn to 5.30am and we were all dead tired after that. If i could i would just crash the moment i reach home. But no, still have to remove makeup all that stuff, it's so troublesome being a girl. So i went to bed at about 7.30am x.x

I literally slept my day away and lived the life of a pig today. Woke up at about 1pm to have my brunch, nua for awhile and went back to sleep at about 3pm and woke up again at 7pm :O

Hi December

2011-12-02T11:30:00.005+08:00

So i finally got round to tidy up my table. And this is how it looks like previously:

And now:

Heheh, #proudofmyself
And yeah, i'm still keeping my lecture notes and whatnot just for in caseeeeee.

Anw, i went solo shopping ytd. Haven't done that in a long time. I don't really dislike it but i don't really like it either. Cause i'll feel somewhat lost when im alone. But im going to do it again sometime soon, to do my christmas shopping(: So excited for christmas~

I really want to get out of Singapore:( Have been wanting to travel like since the start of the year? Anywhere is good, even if it's just genting, bintan, batam, phuket or wherever, as long as my passport gets stamped. Lol, i sound so desperate. But sadly, it will not be possible for the time being, cause im so broke right now:/
The sudden rambling above was because of this picture i found in my photobucket:

I look so fugly here, hahah. But this photo is precious, cause me and my mum queued 2 hours to meet mickey. LOL

On the side note, i really want to get a macbook. Idk what kind there is out there but i just want one. My keyboard is spoiling. My fingers hurt just from typing this post, no joke:(

Bye Bye Black Hair!

2011-11-30T18:13:00.003+08:00

Before:

Black with ugly left over dyed hair ends from 2 years ago

After:

I chose a copperish brown with a tinge of red in it. But it turns out to be more red than brown. It's okay though, i still like it:B And the colour will fade, so maybe by D&D my hair colour will be what i initially wanted(:

I'm A Free Bird

2011-11-30T03:31:00.004+08:00

Freedom is here(:

突然间有些感触

2011-11-29T01:15:00.001+08:00

Freedom in less than 24 hours time! (: cant wait like seriously.

So I survived the 2 years of JC(well, almost). Although I dint come out feeling proud of myself and may not have achieved my main goal of coming here, but i feel and know that it wasn't a wasted journey.
I just realized ytd that I'll be wearing NY's uniform or any school uniform for that matter for most probably the last time later and it feels weird. I'm saying most prob because I don't think I'll be going back even if I can't go anywhere. Cause I know it won't do any good for me. About the intuition thing that I had, I was wondering to myself. Why dint I choose to u-turn if I alr knew what'll most probably happen? And I guess the same reason applies here.

I roughly have an idea of what my grades are going to look like and what will happen to me after this. And I'm prepared. Just let me enjoy these few months first and I'll face reality.

Anw, I made a conclusion that I'm a person who lives in the future. I always look forward, plan and daydream about the future. Yes, life is unpredictable and plans will change, but if that happens, I'm forever still changing and making up plans or the future. I wonder if that's a bad or a good thing. Haha.

As for the nearer future, december is probably going to be quite hectic. And I hope I'll save enough money to go for all the trips that I planned on going.

This is so rambly, haha. But actually, I feel that I haven't really finish what I want to say:O

旋转门

2011-11-26T01:13:00.004+08:00

我逆着时针到回忆里头参观
一圈圈迴圈出不同的情绪片段
放任熱泪圍困住心酸
想说成熟要用多少领悟交换

我可能不会爱你 is really nice!

And yes, i've been obsessed with this show and neglecting my mcqs. Totally no mood for them anymore. Just let it be over already.

Shop Till I Drop

2011-11-22T23:41:00.001+08:00

Taken last week. My brother was having the mood to take photos. So I grabbed the chance and snap lots of photos of him that day. Haha.

Today seriously felt like As over! Haha! Went for the job interview in the morning with jasmine and Szehui. Went to have lunch and walked around after that.

Then met up with Suhui to go on a hunting for prom dress mission, haha! We walked the whole fep(almost). I've never been into so many shops in fep before, serious. Cause normally will just go in those few shops. But today we just go in practically any shop that have dresses. Lol. And we bumped into Angelina and Darren!
Went to paya lebar to continue to search for dress after that. I swear our legs are going to break. Lol. Ite, went back to fep again to find A&D and saw Melissa too! Everybody's in town! Haha! And I bought my dress. It's really simple but the more I look at it, the more I like it(:

I almost forgot that I still have 2 mcq papers. LOL T_T speaking of As. I really screwed it this time. Made me realize what I am really fighting for these 12 years. I mean what's the use of doing well for PSLE and Os and ite screwed up at As right? But wtv, I just hope I can at least get into some private uni. If not... I also dk how. Haha, shall see.

那些年

2011-11-17T00:28:00.004+08:00

那些年错过的大雨
那些年错过的爱情
好想拥抱妳　拥抱错过的勇气
曾经想征服全世界
到最后回首才发现
这世界滴滴点点全部都是妳

Just caught 'You are the apple of my eye' about an hour ago? Literally. And i love love love love this movie. I think i can understand why so many people like this movie. Because it's a story of life. It's a story of growing up. Almost everyone has been through something like that before during the age of growing up and that's why a lot of people can relate to the movie. And i found out that it is a true story of the person who wrote this storyline. Idk, but this movie made me really optimistic about the future and made me want to know what will happen to all of us, to me, to my friends in the future. Haha. It also dig up a lot of memories, and made me even appreciate it more as a part and parcel of life and growing up.

Anw, i really love the soundtrack too! OMG, why all the songs so nice?!

Tonight i don't feel like doing anything~~

孩子气

2011-11-15T02:48:00.001+08:00

“若不是当时我们都有一点懵懂，现在的我会有多么不同。”

Nope I havent watch this. But I really want to!

No such thing as too many shoes

2011-11-11T13:59:00.001+08:00

I want all of theseeeee!

Maybe I should start collecting shoes, heehee:D

Anyway, math p2 today. Not as bad as p1 I guess. Although it's normal. But I really hope it did help me to pull up my grades. So I'm done with math, at least for now. Which I guess is still something to be happy about? Okay, I'm going to celebrate it with with a longer nap today(:

*edit*
Just checked the answer and I did as equally bad. Lol. And the thing is, I don't really feel anything. Maybe it's because I alr knew the outcome. Haha, told yah I'm psychic *winks*

A level rant part 2

2011-11-10T18:04:00.001+08:00

Hi I'm here to rant again. I know, this place has become a dumping ground for all my ill-feelings and school stuff. But I really need to vent out if not I'll feel worse. And Idk if anybody reads this space, but if you find this irritating or if this will affect you, you can stop here now. Because even I am already very irritated by myself.

So today is math paper 1. And again, pretty much screwed it. What's wrong with me? Maybe it's because I really wanted to get an A for math, maybe it's because I really did a lot to try to pull my grades up that i feel so disappointed. I know this is not the end, there's still hope for p2 but just let me rant ok:/ Now, I don't dare to have any expectation for myself anymore. Not even any expectation that any local university will take me in. I guess that's not a bad thing right? No expectation, no disappointment. But don't get me wrong. I'm not giving up. Even though I very much want to, but I know I can't and I will not. One reason why I want to note down these feelings is because I want myself to rmb them. So that I'll not be too disappointed if the results are not what I wanted in the end. Which I hope, with any miracle, it will not happen. I'll pray for the best for myself and for those who are feeling the same way as me!

Ok, end of ranting. Back to stats. I love you so much, stats. I know you love me too right?

Give Me A Reason To Carry On

2011-11-09T16:39:00.001+08:00

3 papers and 1 subject down. And nope, I'm not feeling good. Cause I pretty much screwed everything:( Esp GP. Omg, GP ah GP. Flip paper 1 over and scan through all the questions first thing I want to do is to bang my head against a wall. But paper 1 is not the main prob. It's paper 2:( one full page of short questions don't know how to do, AQ almost one sided, vocab leave one blank. Tell me who could be worse than me? I guess no one since most of the people felt the paper was ok:( The worst thing is GP is sort of the most impt subject. Okay, I really feel like dying now. I'm praying hard that at least my essay and summary was well done. No C also at least let me pass please!

Haii, ok. Enough of ranting. Back to math. I really hope I will come out of the hall tmr feeling good for math and not like how screwed I felt for the past few days. Bless me!

Hope for the best, prepare for the worst.

2011-10-28T00:52:00.001+08:00

A week and a few more days to the As and I'm here lying on my bed reading blogs and watching YouTube videos. And the best part is I know I should get back to my desk but I just can't help myself!:(

I... have somehow lost the drive. Like I feel like I'm not trying my hardest anymore. And idk why?! I feel like all the things I do is insufficient and somehow useless as in the sense that it is not effective. But idk what else I can do. I feel so dead and I seriously don't know how to save myself. I've heard many ppl saying that things will be fine. But I'm not so sure... Usually, if things are going to be fine, I'll have a good feeling about it. And when I don't, it's usually just like how I predicted. A very good example will be PW.

Guess I'll just try my best and prepare for the worst.

Grad Vlog/Video

2011-10-19T07:00:00.001+08:00

Tadaaa~

Not a very good job done cause i was rushing it. But I think it's too late and irrelevant if I put it up after As. So...

The Very Last

2011-10-14T23:26:00.003+08:00

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

- Time Of Your Life(Green Day)

And today, i've graduated from NYJC! It's a mix of happiness, relief, sadness and a lot of other feelings that i couldn't find the words to. I'm sure i'll miss my JC life. It's been a tough journey these 2 years but it has also been a whole 2 years of fun for me! And this is all thanks to my classmates and DAWMSZ(: We've been through so much ups and downs together in this mere 2 years and im really thankful to have met this bunch of awesome ppl.

I've truly enjoyed my times in nanyang and had never regretted coming here. Even though many times i feel like giving up, but there's ALWAYS somebody there to pull me back up and help me get on my feet again. And even through the toughest time, we could still make a joke out of it and go crazy together due to the huge amount of stress. If it wasnt for all these going crazy sessions, i think i would have seriously really went crazy a long time ago.

Okay, i know this is a bit mushy and all. But this is truly how i felt okay! And most imptly, less than a month to As, let's do it togetherrrrr!

Anwww, will be posting up a vlog for graduation day hopefully soon? If not after As which i know is a lil too late but time is the most precious thing that i have right now.

♡♥♡

2011-10-10T21:24:00.001+08:00

Wong Fu + Lee Hom = Win

Something New

2011-09-26T14:59:00.003+08:00

I think this is kind of a fail vlog cause i dint like really vlog throughout the day and so the clips were all very mismatch. It's quite awkward vlogging outside, and i or we weren't used to it, so yeah. Practice make perfect(:

Been Such A Long Time...

2011-09-21T23:39:00.005+08:00

Tonight is one of the rare night where i have the chance to be just sitting in front of my computer and thinking about everything but studies. Studies have took over my life completely that i don't even remember how it feels like to not be studying for a night. It somehow became a routine for me. I even wondered if it'll feel weird if i really don't need to study anymore for a long period of time after As. But im sure i'll be able to get used to that feeling(: So i can't wait for that day to come like seriously. Super excited for after As! Life would be so good.

I alr have a list of things i want to do:
(p.s yep, i copied this idea from suhui, heh :b)
1. Take up dance/yoga class (Yep, im thinking of trying yoga nowadays!)
2. Taiwan with DAWMSZ!
3. Work on my blogshop
4. UK with Szehui(Probably? Depends on my finance status then, haha. But im crossing my fingers.)
5. Do more vlogs- fashion vlogs maybe?
Ok, doesnt seem like there's a lot i've planned to do now, but all these are enough to make me broke. So i must find a job ASAP after As to support my to-do list. Ahh so excited!

Before that i'll mug super hard for As. I must not let my parents down, i must not waste their money spent on helping me to improve my grades. And most importantly, i must not let myself down. Comeon, you can do this wl! 2 more months of hard work for 8 months of good life. ON!

Anw, today's a movie marathon night for me. I've watched Beastly(like finally) and The Lovely Bones. And i really like both movies! Beastly is just like your typical happy ending love story, but the point is, i like this kind of lovey dovey romance movie. Haha, just being the girly girl i am. And The Lovely Bones is just very breathtaking. I don't know how else to describe. It's quite hard to understand but i think overall the movie's still nice. If you've got nothing else to do, i recommand you to watch it(: And oh, i've got the book but i've yet to finish reading it. Should get around doing that after As too.

So, prelims almost over. And i don't dare to say i'll get any good or even decent grades. Especially for math and chemistry. I've no hope that i'll do well for both that subject this time round. But at the very least, i can say that i've tried my very hardest. Even if it doesn't pay off now, i hope it will at the end. I hope. Cause i have always believed in reaping what you sow. All i can do now is to work harder and pray that all will be well.

Vlogging Fun

2011-09-16T14:34:00.003+08:00

Did a vlog with Szehui anwering some fun questions we found on tumblr when we got bored from studying awhile ago. There are 30 questions so we split it up into 3 parts if not the video will be super long.

The questions:
1. 5 ways to win your heart
2. Something you feel strongly about
3. A book you love
4. Bullet your whole day
5. Things you want to say to an ex
6. Your views on mainstream music
7. 5 pet peeves
8. What you ate today
9. How important you think education is
10. Put your music player on shuffle and write down the first 10 songs that play

I think vloggings quite fun! Most probably going to be doing more of it(:

Taking a lil break from prelims. 5 papers down 5 more papers to go and im dying. Like seriously, why? It's not like i din't try to change my study method and get all my doubts cleared, but why is this still happening to me? Although many ppl agree that this time round the papers were quite difficult, but you know how it's always like: im the only one failing while all the others are getting good/decent grades:( The feeling of always lagging behind is just not good if you know what i mean. And im quite stress for physics this time round because i don't want to get a U again and end up wasting my mum's money. I want to show her that her money is put to good use. Then again, it's easy to say, but hard to do. I don't know what to do but i know i don't want to repeat this for another year. I want to move on with my life and enjoy life like how it should be. Im already trying my best, but i guess best will never be enough, or maybe i just don't deserve it.

I can do this

2011-09-07T18:30:00.001+08:00

“Not much time left now; not much more to endure. Just a few more short weeks, she tells herself, just a few more weeks to freedom. She squares her shoulders and gathers up her things to work, pen poised above paper just so, textbooks splayed open to the appropriate pages. She purses her lips in concentration, telling herself that she needs to focus, she needs to focus so she can get this done and get on with her life. The words in front of her eyes blur into meaningless squiggles across white paper, her pen refusing to flow across the page to make sentences of meaning and insight and analysis. Her head hurts, a dull throb in her temples that refuses to go away. She sighs and throws her study materials away, cradling her head in her hands. When did it get so hard, she wonders, when did it get so hard to do this? When did her motivation leave her? When did she stop caring? She sighs and frowns at her books. After a moment, she reaches over and picks them up again, setting herself to work. Not much longer now, she tells herself. You can do this, you can do this, you can do this.”

— Isabella Sunday (via atomos)

Mood Swings

2011-08-26T22:27:00.001+08:00

You know the moment when you suddenly don't feel like talking, laughing or even faking a smile?

I don't like being like this.

Freaking Scared

2011-08-25T20:17:00.001+08:00

Hi, long time no blog. This place is so abandoned now that I guess nobody comes here anymore. Oh well, haha.

So yeah, still busy over the same old stuff. I wish this would end soon. But coming to think of it, soon's going to come faster than you think. And this makes me want to change my mind and hope that there's one more extra month instead. Prelim's coming and I'm scared. Like seriously scared. I kept asking myself, what if i don't make it again this time? What if I fail again? What am I going to do with myself? And I seriously don't have an answer because I don't even dare to think of it. I seriously hope I won't even need to think about it when i get back my results. Please.

Sometimes, I feel quite out of place. Like I don't really belong there you know? Cause it's like though i'm trying so hard to catch up with everyone else, and still not doing a good job of it. I feel like maybe I've overestimated myself.

And i don't know why but I'm feeling so philosophical these days that I keep questioning my existence. I can't see my value in anything or to anybody.

Should stop all this negative thinking and get back on track.

Piece of glass

2011-07-24T22:03:00.001+08:00

This song is awesome I swear.

And yeah, over-thinking ruins you. So just don't think.

Watch Me

2011-07-15T00:19:00.001+08:00

Go on and try to tear me down. I'll be rising from the ground, like a skyscraper.

Failure

2011-07-12T19:48:00.001+08:00

I think the funniest thing is that when she ask me what was wrong, why did I do so badly? I couldn't answer her. Was it because I did not put in any effort? Was it because I've not been practicing? Was is because I've not been listening in class? No, no and no! I seriously don't even know what went wrong myself. And I wished I knew. Why is it that I've worked so hard and what I've got in return is a piece of shit? I want to know why too. Can you tell me why? You know what I really feel like doing now? I really feel like giving up and just quit this tiring and energy draining cycle. But I can't. I know I have to just pick it up and move on. After all, what's the surprise about? It's not as if I don't already knew that I was going to do so badly right? See, I'm not joking when I say I know I'm going to do badly, I just know. And I don't need to pray that somehow, my results will be better than expected, because miracles have never and will never happen on me.

Best Day Of 2011

2011-07-10T11:20:00.006+08:00

Im not the best when it comes to video editing, but you get the gist of it(: So anw, i went to USS last friday with Suhui, Melissa, Zhenyi and Angelina!!! Had lots of fun with them on that day and it's hands down the best day of 2011. I think USS is seriously my favourite place in Singapore now. I honestly thought i was in some other country there! And i love all the rides there. Favourite is of course the Battlestar Galactica: Human & Cylon! I was very scared initially, probably because i can't remember when's the last time i went on a rollercoaster ride. But i am proud to say i conquered both of them, haha! And it only gets better when you ride it at night, they totally increased the speed :O But it's seriously super fun! Oh, and their fireworks is super pretty too!<3 The video does not do justice to it.

On the side note, i kind of like the idea of vlogging more than blogging now, haha.

Give Me Some Miracle

2011-06-26T18:54:00.003+08:00

Some random photos i took when i got too bored from studying.

And look at my new toy! :D

Alrighties, mye is tmr. I think a lot of us alr lost the motivation. It's like the mind is too tired after 1 month of mugging. I don't know why but my mentality now is kind of like 'i don't care alr'. But i promise i will work harder after mye. So, first up for tmr is physics, the worst subject ever. Wish me luck eh, i really need some miracle.

I know my blog is boring, everyday only talking about school, haha. But that is how my life is like for now, so sad:(

Rant Post

2011-06-23T18:28:00.001+08:00

I feel like my life is being sucked out of me and I basically have nearly none of it left now. I feel like I'm wasting my time you know. And there's 2 ways that I see it.
1. I know I'll not do well even with this whole month of madness mugging. And I feel like i've wasted my holiday away.
2. I tried to stuff so much things into my brain within one month, and I felt like nothing have really went in. So idk what I've been doing for the past 1 month. Again, made me feel like i've wasted my time.
This is the worst holiday ever I've been through. Seriously, I've never studied until I've the thought of giving up, no matter how hard it is. Not during psle, not during o levels. Well, maybe that's the difference here. But I'm so sick of it. And you know what's the best part? If I get back my papers and see that i've gotten results that are like shit. I'll not be surprised. Happened too many times to be. Sorry but I just can't get myself to be positive now.

Current Life Theme Song

2011-06-14T01:19:00.002+08:00

This song just sang out how my current life is now. Enough said.

Holiday(?)

2011-06-10T23:37:00.006+08:00

Hi, im here to update my dying blog. Ok, not that anyone care because i don't think there's any readers for my blog, haha. But anw, it's been 10 days into June and mostly what i've been doing this holiday is just mugging and more mugging. So no life at all, i know right? But i've still got so many things left to cover because my study speed is so turtle slow. Hate it.

Didn't went out a lot this holiday as of now. But did strike off a few to-dos beside study on my list. All that it's left is movie now. I want to go to the cinema to watch a movie! I think it's been a month or 2 since i last went to watch a movie? :(

For the past 2 weeks:
1. Surprised szehui at her house at midnight on her birthday.
Was a bit fail though, lol.

Awkward moment sitting in her room waiting for her to appear.
Then we crashed at her house. Was planning to watch some movies i think, but i fell asleep in the end:/ Too tired. Had mac breakfast tgt in the morning, went back home to get some rest and met out again for some k session.
It felt so weird at first cause i was scrolling through the song list and i dont know what song to pick at all. It wasnt usually like that you know. And we actually completed all the songs that we chose. Usually, we would be like rushing through all the songs in the last hour. This is weird. Probably because we were all too tired.

2. Went to the museum for class NE trip.
We finished the route quite fast cause we were just like skimming through everything. And it's still all the same since the last time i've been there, so. Plus we were hungry, haha. Yes, i remembered that i was very hungry that day.

3.Had my virgin clubbing experience.
Went to butterfactory with szehui, eileen and her friend.

Idk, now that i think back, i don't really like it. The before was bad, i don't know why the incident is still haunting me even though nothing happened in the end. And the after was just bad too, because i was feeling very very very sick. I admit it was fun in the midst, all that feeling high and stuff. But when i am more sober and i think back, i was quite disgusted with myself. No offence to those who find clubbing fun, but it just wasn't for me. It's still an experience though.

So i stayed at home today cause i was too lazy to go to the lib, and my producivity level immediately dropped. I keep going back to sleep today. Really must go out study from next week onwards. Hopefully everyday. Hopefully i'll not be lazy and decide to stay home again. Okay, back to mugging now!

Random

2011-05-22T01:15:00.003+08:00

(credit: 1,2)

Would really love to try wearing high ankle socks plus heels out someday.

Runaway

2011-05-21T08:09:00.005+08:00

"I guess there isn’t really a reason for me to run away. I’ve got a great life,
no real problems. But sometimes I just wanna get up and go, without any
direction. Lose my way and forget where I come from. Sometimes I just wanna see
something new. Not the same old thing. It’s not that I’m running away from
something, more like I’m running to something new." (via wordsandlyrics)

This. So relevant. I just want to break free from this boring, mundane and stressful cycle. Soon, it's just half a year more to go. I've alr went through one and a half year of this, what's another half a year? I can do this. Hopefully:/

I think i need to do some self reflection. I've been lacking the drive to do anything lately. Not just studying but everything. I just want to sleep and sleep all day. Like seriously, what's wrong with me? And i feel really annoying lately, like everything i say or do will annoy somebody. Haha, so paranoid right? But idk, i just feel myself being really annoying. So if i did annoy any of you that's reading this, im so sorry. I just feel weird this week. I've been called weird so many times before, but i don't agree to it most of the time. But this time, it's really me feeling weird. Does this makes any sense?

Anw, i slept for 11 hrs today! :D Fell asleep at 8pm and woke up at 7am naturally. I didn't mean to go to sleep at 8pm, i only wanted to take a nap actually, but i just slept through the night. But i woke up feeling great(: Even my mum can see that i'm happy because i finally had my sleep. Is it that obvious? Haha.

Home Is Where The Heart Is

2011-05-15T02:36:00.006+08:00

Because of the fear of what they might have to face if they start facing the reality and stop being "weak". And sometimes, it's just so much easier not being the strong one. But i don't believe in running away, because that won't solve any problem. Okay, just some random thoughts coming out of nowhere after seeing this quote.

Flu has been harassing me for the past week, and it's not fun at all. I have been using tissues like as if they are freeflow and keep having to use my mouth to breathe. But i think it's already getting better, so yay(:

Anw, after math test and college day today, i went to the flea at scape with Szehui to buy my heels from the vendor recommended by Eileen!
I've never had a pair of heels that have this much height. Totally can't wait to wear it out, haha!

I hate to admit, but i've really been slacking this few days. Reminder to self: get back to track soon, can't lose that momentum.

Oh and this week's episode of TVD is still very sad. Whyyyyyyy?:( And it's alr the season finale, which means that i've to wait for the new season which is like idk when:(

A Penny For Your Thoughts

2011-05-07T11:20:00.003+08:00

This is so cuteee!

And yay for another 3 days weekend!:D I have been slacking my past 2 nights away using the comp and watching shows. Love those times where i can just put away the thoughts of studying for awhile and just relax <3

Anw, talking about shows, there's this new show called 醉后决定爱上你 by Rainie and some guy called Joseph i think? It's really funny and nice! Very unrealistic too. But that's the purpose of watching shows right, to be away from reality. Also watch the lastest episode of The Vampire Diaries ytd and it's so sad:( It's like a mood rollercoaster ride watching shows ytd.

-

I think life's been better nowadays. I'm learning to cope with the stress and have been reminding myself to focus on positivity. Sometimes, it's hard, espcially when my hard work doesnt pay off. But as the saying goes: 'It doesnt matter how slowly you go, as long as you don't stop'. I guess i'll just have to take baby steps and perservere, isn't it? Furthermore, i'm not in this alone, i have DAWMSZ that makes my school life so much better. I also have my missys to take my mind away from all those studies and stress. Plus i have my family with me. Love them all so much<3 I'm not trying to decieve myself into believeing my life is perfect here. No doubt that there's still problems here and there and there's still times where i just feel like giving up. But i just chose to fight negativity with positivity. I chose to focus on and be thankful of what i have, and not what i don't have. I just find life much easier this way.

I hope it's the same for you - who's reading this - too(:

Don't Cry

2011-05-03T23:45:00.002+08:00

我們都別哭傷心會浪費你的呵護
愛微笑著回顧有你那段路短暫卻幸福

看一個人從生命淡出不哭因為很愛

Little Bliss In Life To Keep You Going

2011-04-27T23:03:00.005+08:00

Here are the pictures from dinner with missys on last sunday night. Took awhile to upload cause i haven't on my comp for days:/

Thanks missys for the belated birthday present! I lovelovelove it so much!<3

Trying to act one tumblr photo, HAHA.

More pictures here: click

And if you haven't notice, i've put by the side some of my favourite blogs to read. Go check them out if you are looking for some blogs to read! I think they are awesome(:

Life's still pretty much the same. As mundane as ever. But filled with little joys that my lovelies gave me<3

Too Young To Feel This Old

2011-04-23T23:38:00.004+08:00

爱情是一种记号也是一条单行道
总是想要的很多得到的嫌太少
黑与白都一样好没有谁绝对重要
偏偏人就爱比较受的苦全自找
明明活的很好却感觉快死掉
你在哭他在笑多微妙

只有在体会爱的不完美
才能够学会爱该怎么给
给自己一个喘息的机会
也试着让爱有路可退
当开始接受记忆里的黑
流下了不完美的眼泪
才学会不怕后退后退
不再心碎

True the lyrics.

Familar Yet Strange

2011-04-22T01:19:00.005+08:00

If it wasn't for me being exceptionally forgetful today, i could still be counting the days. Others call it coincidence, but i'd like to call it fate. However, i know where to stop at this time, fate have me fooled before and i won't fall for it again.

Yay for 3 days weekend!

Forever An Option, Never A Priority

2011-04-19T23:50:00.001+08:00

Relevant.

Wearing My Heart On My Sleeve

2011-04-15T22:35:00.002+08:00

Could really use some of your jokes now. How i wish. But I know i don't need them. Cause i have all my dear family and friends with me by my side, and that is enough.

What I Do When Im Bored

2011-04-14T22:11:00.004+08:00

So i was very bored yesterday from studying, so i went to try out this hairstyle which i learnt on youtube.

Though mine is not as nice as hers, haha.

Aye, im procrastinating again:(

These days i guess everyone has been very tired. You know how they say everything becomes funnier when you're tired? This is what's happening to us. We laugh a lot and talk a lot of nonsense. Though it's really funny and added something interesting to our mundane school life, haha.

累死我

2011-04-10T19:22:00.005+08:00

My whole body is still aching, but it's better alr i guess? Seriously feel damn old:( So yesterday went to school early in the morning for napfa 5 stations. After that went home and rest awhile before meeting up with Szehui. We went to the flea at scape for some shopping and also to find Eileen! I didn't want to spend any money actually, but it was like all the stuffs are so cheap and there are things that i've alr wanted them for quite some time, so i end up spending anyway. Hai, so much for wanting to save up money. Went to 313 to have dinner at subway after that and went home.

Our loots!

And... we met up again at midnight for our usual overnight study session. I finally couldn't take it anymore at 5am. My eyes were already half closed and am ready to fall asleep anytime. So we went home without even having any breakfast.

I'm still damn tired now. Can i not go to school tmr? I need one more day of rest pleaseeeee.

Haven't You Heard? Life Isn't Fair

2011-04-06T21:27:00.003+08:00

Feeling a bit :/ now, and i dont exactly know why. Probably because everything in my life that i need to see improvement on is so stagnant. How much determination do i need before i start seeing some results?

Got back most of the block test results. Dint do well, in fact, i actually did really badly. I asked myself if i have worked hard this time round. Maybe i dint put in my all, but i really did tried. It's kind of expected actually. Ever since JC, it seems to me like effort doesn't always equate to results. But i still can't help but to feel disappointed.

But it's okay, i'll get back on my feet and move on. I'm not going to let all these bring me down. I guess i'll just have to hold on and do better, because i believe that fruits of labour doesn't come easily. If i don't pick myself up, who will?

AMOONDANCE

2011-04-02T21:46:00.004+08:00

MINI SPRING COLLECTION!
-AMoonDance

I personally like the pieces in this collection very much!

Went for run again just now, timing is still not good:( Going for overnight study session with Szehui later! Hope we'll keep up to this until A levels, persevere.

多麼幸能遇見你，是上天賜給我的福氣

2011-04-02T00:18:00.002+08:00

Yay, she's back!

Still Alive

2011-03-26T22:06:00.003+08:00

Yep, i survived BT week and it's finally over:D Ok, i know, it's not like As is over. But still, it feels good to be able to relax awhile after a test and it feels good not to worry about studies.

So after BT, dawmsz without d and s went to cathay to have astons and watched Morning Glory. It's not exactly very interesting, but still nice to watch. And ever since i got home from then, i've been watching dramas non-stop. Completed Dream High and caught up with The Vampire Diaries:D Now left with Pretty Little Liars. I sound like an addict.

-abrupt end-

I've No Idea What To Name This Post

2011-03-20T14:42:00.003+08:00

@ Somerset with Suhui

Town with missys

Procrastinating for awhile before heading back to studies. Have been crazily studying with Szehui the past 2 days. Met up at rp in the afternoon till it closes then change venue to Admiralty's mac till dawn. For consecutive 2 days! I think we are (Y) lol. It's crazy, but it kind of work(:

Eating Books

2011-03-18T00:11:00.001+08:00

I don't even know what's in there.

Now my life basically only revolves around studying, sleeping and eating. Okay, that sounds like a pig. I've been spending most of my time coop in my room, sitting infront of the desk. But can somebody tell me why my progress is still so slow?! And omg, it's alr Friday. I think I'm going to have a panic attack.

Anw, I've got some pics from the outings a few days ago. But i've not uploaded the pics yet. So yeah, after BT maybe?

Pray

2011-03-11T22:47:00.004+08:00

What is happening to the world? I've never really been affected before when i see natural disasters happening, but this time i was. It's really scary to see how destructive the damage was done to Japan. And then what's next? Phillipines, Hawaii, China?

And some ppl could still make negative remarks about it. Seriously, don't you have any heart at all?

I Can't Remember What's It's Like Not To Be Tired

2011-03-10T21:31:00.004+08:00

Am soooooooo tired this week. I was not feeling this tired last week you know, at least i could still pay attention to lectures. But idk why this week i really cannot stay focus and kept wanting to doze off during lessons. During assembly this week, the school invited some sleep specialist to come and talk to us. And i remembered he said something like if you sleep for 4hrs average everyday, by the end of one week or smth you would feel like you haven't slept for 2 days. Is this what's happening to me? Went for piano lesson ytd and i was like falling asleep and not really paying attention to what she's saying. My teacher saw and suggest i should change my lessons to weekends, and i was like, yes! Let's change it to weekends. Lol. I can really feel my eyebags getting heavier, like it's not alr is:(

March hols is coming! Even though that means major mugging for a week, but i guess it's still better than waking up early for school. Plus will be meeting up with missys too! Yay sing K i want go sing K:D

Enchanted

2011-03-06T11:33:00.004+08:00

This song is so sweeeeet! It's Owl City's Adam Young's reply to Taylor Swift's Enchanted which she wrote for him. Imagine anyone doing this for you, omg. You guys should totally listen to it.

Anw, yesterday was sports carnival. Suhui and me woke up late together so we reached bedok reservoir late, but still in time for db=x Watch the others play 'capture the flag' after that. It was really fun to watch! Our class was like screaming from the start to the end of the game, and i think it somehow worked cause we won, hahaha. Went to Tampines 1 to had lunch after that with classmates at Manpuku. Was alr very tired out by then so went straight home after eating.

Had overnight study session again yesterday with Szehui. And we fell asleep ite at about 4am, lol. I tried very hard to keep myself awake. But my eyes kept closing and soon i was alr asleep and i didn't even realise until i woke up. A sad student's life.

Temptations

2011-03-02T23:36:00.004+08:00

Went to F21's online catalogue just now and am so tempted to head down to F21 for some shopping! Their spring collection looks nice, and i could use some flowery pieces to brighten up my closet.

Am catching up with kpop songs, lost touch on them for quite awhile. So my playlist is updated, finally. I'm quite sick of listening back the same songs everyday. Listening to Dream High's OST now and they make me want to go watch it now! But no, i have to control myself. I'll watch after block test:D

Speaking of shows, i haven't been watching Pretty Little Liars and Vampire Diaries for sometime alr too! Where's my leisure time!? :(

Chill

2011-03-01T21:10:00.003+08:00

Too fast.

Idk, but is it normal at all to feel the stress so early? I have been wishing that i have more than 24 hours a day nowadays. Was thinking today if i should stop piano for a year. There's a part of me that feels like doing so since i haven't been really practicing and only practice the day before i go to lesson. But there's another part of me that want to keep continuing, cause if i stop, it means i'll take a longer time to get my next cert. What should i do?

I think i should stop being so paranoid. Keep calm and carry on.

Burned

2011-02-27T14:10:00.005+08:00

There's always so much to do, but so little time.

:/

2011-02-21T22:45:00.001+08:00

It's one of those nights again where nothing feels right. But the fact is that nothing is wrong either. This seriously sucks. But it's ok, because everything will go back to normal when the sun comes up.

And I still haven't finish studying for tmr's econs test because I'm feeling so distracted. Sucks double time.

Still Alive

2011-02-16T22:28:00.003+08:00

Been so long since i update this space. My reason is my mundane personal life, busy school life and laziness. I realised that everytime when school starts, i'll find it difficult to blog. Because there's nothing much to blog about. Everyday basically repeats itself.

I miss my missys.

Happy CNY

2011-02-04T14:48:00.003+08:00

This cny is nothing much actually for me, dint go visiting relatives all those stuffs. Just had dinner with a few of them and that's all. Anw, my family and i went to marina barrage and marina bay on the first day of cny and we ended off the day eating durains at geylang. I'm very lazy to elaborate, so i shall let the pictures do the job.

It's really nice and windy at marina barrage at night. And it's my firsts time there, haha!

Lot's of pretty LED kites!

There's a carnival going on!

This one here is diff from the one in genting. It's much faster, but it's more fun.

made up of many many bottles!

Went to see the new year decorations at the floating platform a.k.a hangbao river

Ain't Nothing Like You

2011-01-31T23:51:00.002+08:00

It's so colddddd, I'm wearing a jacket as I'm typing this now. It's like natural aircon outside and my fingers are cold the whole day. Though it can be freezing in lectures, I still prefer this kind of weather though, minus the rain. I'd prefer it to be just windy and chilly. If only s'pore is like that all year round. Ok, I'm actually talking about the weather. Great topic uh, haha.

Trying to restore my comp now. It's taking forever. Hope it won't crash anymore!!!

Raindrops Keep Falling On My Head

2011-01-30T10:16:00.003+08:00

Friday
Went shopping with Eileen and Szehui after school on Friday! We went to 313 first and we spent a lot of time there. I think we walked 2 rounds in it and went in a lot of shops. So after spending about 2 hours in 313, we went to takashimaya. Then we wanted to go to FEP to shop and do manicure, but we went too late and all the shops are closing :/ It's the first time we rush while shopping. I guess it's because we meet up quite late. Walked to Ion after that and had supper at Food Opera, chatted and home.

Eileen! Y U SO SKINNY!?

Saw this very big and furry dog on the street of Orchard. Everybody went to crowd around the dog to take a picture of it. I think it looks like a lion, then i think it looks like a bear, haha. But it's really very big.

Saturday
Wasted my afternoon away sleeping. I really think i have a problem with time management :( Went out to have dinner in the evening with my godmums/dads/sisters/brothers.

Went to Chongpang and Northpoint after eating for awhile and went home.
Then my mum, sister and me went to partyworld to sing! This is our first time singing together. I think it's quite cool, LOL.

It's been raining ever since yesterday nonstop. But it's ok, cause i like it though c:

眼淚不是盔甲是回憶積累

2011-01-25T23:47:00.003+08:00

"哪天在天上若有重逢的機會
我會說外婆錯了淚不止傷悲
而是既然擁抱生命就不後悔
眼淚是個膠囊我療傷的必備"

Lazieeeee

2011-01-24T23:16:00.005+08:00

Don't misunderstood, i just merely touched his cheek and he sticked his tongue out himself. I did not squeeze it out of him. Just saying cause my sister thought i did that, lol.
Hi bumble bee!

This is the dream catcher bracelet i bought.
A random shot

Went solo swimming today, been so long since i done that. Ok, i think i only did it once, which was last year june or what? I still prefer to go with someone, it took me very long to decide whether to go a not cause i was feeling lazy.

Ok, back to homework now.

Overflowing Thoughts

2011-01-19T23:17:00.002+08:00

I wanted to blog, but i realised that i have nothing much to blog about.

I think my mind is quite in a swirl right now, because i haven't had the time to plan out all my thoughts like what i'm planning to do etc. I like to plan a lot, and make a lot of lists. I can't just leave them all hanging in my mind, i need to get it written down. I guess it's because i can think about a lot of different things all at once together. Like i can be thinking about something and the next moment i'll be thinking about another thing, then i'll jump back to the thing that i was thinking about previously again. So i'll get very confused by myself, lol. That's why i like to pen it all down, it makes everything more organised anyway. Is this just me or?

Ok, i think i've been wasting my time away and i haven't studied for tmr's GP test. I've completely forgotten how to do AQ questions, if i was doing it right in the first place.

Obsession: Dream Catcher

2011-01-16T00:16:00.006+08:00

A thing i'm currently obsessed with now: Dream Catcher.

I don't remember since when i started to like dream catcher and wanted to get one. I don't know the reason why either, but i just suddenly like it. Dream catchers originated in the Ojibwa nation and was adopted by the Native Americans. It was believed to protect people from negative dreams, while letting positive dreams through. The positive dreams would slip through the hole in the center of the dream catcher, and glide down the feathers to the sleeping person below. The negative dreams would get caught up in the web, and expire when the first rays of the sun struck them. (source: dream-catchers.org)

I really want a dream catcher. X-craft sells them, but it's a bit expensive for something that is for decorative purpose and i'm not sure if i should spent the money on it:/ Someone get me one? Haha. Anw, I saw a dream catcher bracelet online and i bought it. Does this shows how obsessed i am?

TGIF

2011-01-14T22:01:00.003+08:00

Yay! It's friday. This week feels long, although actually there were only 3 school days.

I think it's a good thing to do self reflection daily. I've been noting down how i've been feeling everyday and reminding myself of things that i've promised to myself. And this made me realised that i haven't been really keeping them, like thinking before speaking. But i will try harder.

Something to share:
Do you know the logic of the day 111 (1.11.11) ? Take the last two digits of your birth year and add it with the age you're turning this year, weird or what.
e.g: 93 + 18 = 111

Here We Go Again

2011-01-12T22:51:00.004+08:00

Today is officially the first day of school. I dont know why but this year i really miss the feeling of going back to school and studying again. Weird i know. Maybe i will look back at this sentence i just typed a month later and laugh at myself. Anyhow, now that school has started, i think i'll have lesser things to blog about, cause it will be the same old cycle all over again and it will be so uninteresting. So this place will be left slightly unattended from time to time i guess?

I really have been eating a lot nowadays. Went to pasar malam with Suhui after school today to buy food to go home and snack on. I. Must. Stop. This.

Anw, i'm almost done with decorating my room! (:

Back To School

2011-01-10T22:05:00.003+08:00

Wasn't much of a school today. Just assembly, talks and CT period. Anw, ite, i went back to Riverside instead of going to Yishun MRT :D Went back to see the people take their results, gave flyers and most importantly ate chinese rice and kaya toast. Thn i went home first and met up with Jasmine for dinner later in the day and ate somemore. I ate so much today :O

Going to school tmr, bah.

Last Day Of Freedom :(

2011-01-09T22:20:00.002+08:00

Flea was yesterday and though i dint really earn back($2-3 away from it), i guess it's a good experience? It was quite fun. The day dint start out great cause firstly, my handle for the travelling bag broke. It broke just before im going out, how lucky am i? Then we took a cab because we thought we are running late, but we are stuck in the traffic jam instead. Later in the day was better, at least got sell some items but was quite boring most of the time because our sales was pretty stagnant for a few hours. But overall, i still think it's a good experience(:

And i woke up late today. Was supposed to be at Suhui's house at 10.30, but i woke up at 10.30=x So anw, i think we pretty much finished the video, left some editing and we're done.
Tmr is going to be so useless, i don't even feel like going to school tmr. It's not that i don't want to go back, it's because they ask me to go Yishun, that's why i don't want to go to school tmr:( And i dint do any school related stuffs today, except for econs proj, i want to enjoy my last day of freedom. Hai, that sounds sad:(

Ramblings

2011-01-08T00:26:00.003+08:00

Flea is tmr! I hope i can like at least earn back my table money and maybe also some extra cash.

Anw, there's like so much tests going on when school reopen. And i haven't even revise my work. It'll be so sad to be failing the first test of the year. Another thing, they deployed me to yishun mrt instead of riverside. Omg :( I was still looking forward to eating riverside's chinese rice. And i can walk home from riverside but i need to take bus home from yishun leh. Well, at least i got a straight bus home, but still, sian. Saw the new timetable also, some changes in teacher which i think is good? But some that need to be change never change, like econs and physics== And PE is like 7.30am everytime, omg.

Ok, this post is probably turning into a going back to school rant post. Shall stop.

And szehui's wants her name here, she's currently on the crazy mode. She wants me to say she's very cute and nice. Somebody save her, HAHA.

Payday!

2011-01-06T23:58:00.002+08:00

Finally collected my pay for bistro and commision for sitex. Like suddenly become rich overnight, hahaha. I'm kidding. Anw, after szehui and me went to collect our pay for bistro, we went to Marina Square's Suki-ya to eat.

A minus is that they have very limited choices of food for the buffet. Maybe because they call it the 'healthy bar'. So they only provide food like vegetables, mushroom, tofu etc. You get the idea. Their meat is free flow though, but it doesn't really benefit us:/ Still, we ate till we were very bloated, but still had to stuff all the food down if not they will charge us 20% for wasting food.

Then we went to collect our commision and went bugis for shopping! :D And i bought a maxi dress. But my sis saw it and said: 'you so short, why you buy this?' Wts >_< At least it won't be sweeping the floor. Walked the whole bugis street and went to Iluma for Berrylite.

Can you guess which is not mine? Haha.
Went back to bugis street and walked around again before going to bugis junction and finally home.

I cannot emphasise this enough. Come to the flea @ Scape Arts & Street Market(It's at the basement of *SCAPE, opp cineleisure) on 8th January 2011(1-9pm)!!

Love Yourself

2011-01-05T22:42:00.004+08:00

I kept repeating this this few days. Yes, love yourself. If you don't, nobody else will.

Swam 20 laps today! If i keep this up, i think i will see myself losing weight soon! Haha, hopefully.

Pretty Little Liars has started airing again! Waited so long for it. And then now The Vampire Diaries have to only air their next episode on the 27th of January. Great==

Anw, come to the flea @ Scape Arts & Street Market(It's at the basement of *SCAPE, opp cineleisure) on 8th January 2011(1-9pm)!!

So Random

2011-01-04T13:05:00.004+08:00

Been going swimming these few days with Jasmine and Szehui. I really need it. Have been eating too much nowadays and i feel really fat :(

School's opening soon. Actually, i don't really reject that idea of going back to school, it's what that will follow after it that scares me. And i don't really feel that i'm ready for J2 yet, cause i've pretty much forgot all my J1 stuffs. Hai. Wish me luck uh. And i think i'll be taking up tuition? Hope it works.

Ok, going studying soon and swimming later. But i'm so hungry naooooo. What to eat?

Hello 2011!

2011-01-01T13:34:00.004+08:00

Yay, it's 1/1/11! HAPPY NEW YEAR! :D

I spent my new year differently from the past years cause i was working. But i think it's actually quite fun. Szehui and me ran out to see the fireworks when it's 12 and then we went crazy jumping around and wishing ppl happy new year :D We mixed a lot of drinks for ourselves too and drank quite a lot. Talked a lot with a frequent customer there, she's really nice! Oh, and also talked more with Yanxuan, haha. After ending work at 4am plus, Szehui and me went to cineleisure to chill and have our breakfast. Waited for the first train until we both almost fell asleep and you can see everybody looking so shag after not sleeping for a night. So as expected, i K.O-ed once i reach home.

Anw, i'm doing up a new year resolution this year. I didn't do one the past few years because i think i won't be able to stick to it. But this year, i want to have some goals for myself to accomplish and reach.

2011 New Year Resolution:
1. Mug really hard for A levels
2. Save at least $20 a week
3. Do more exercise and slim down!
4. Be happy and more positive
5. Focus on the dreams
6. Be a more filial daughter, a better sister, and a better friend
7. Think before speaking

The 365th Day

2010-12-31T15:50:00.000+08:00

2010 is almost over now. This is way too fast. I mean I can still remember myself counting down with Szehui and Eileen at Marina Square and squeezing with the ppl all the way back to cityhall. I can also remember O level results release day and the first day I went to NYJC. Seems like everything just happened yesterday, but a year has alr passed. Wow.

So I guess this year is quite a good year for me? There were lots of changes. Going to a new school, making new friends and making more discoveries about myself. I think I’ve changed, many ppl said so too. I’ve become more straightforward with my feelings and also learnt to be firm on my own points and views. I’ve also become more optimistic. If you ask me do I see a glass half full or half empty, I’ll say it’s half full. I’ve learnt to forgo little things that upsets me and be thankful for those little happiness that I get in life. Because I realised that if you keep thinking about what you don’t have, you’ll never have enough and will never be happy. But if you look at things that you have, you’ll realise how lucky you are and will be happier.

Things for my family were quite rough this year especially during the mid-year, I have never thought that my family would have to face this kind of problem. But I’m glad everything’s over now. And there was also the birth of my little brother. He brought much joy to our family and I absolutely love him very much! I love how he is always very happy when he comes back home and becomes very sad when he needs to go back to the nanny’s house because that shows that he loves us a lot too.

Going to a new school was definitely another big change this year. I was afraid that I wouldn’t make any friends at first like how it was when we were streamed to a new class in sec 3. But thank heaven it was not like that at all. I’ve made some really good friends in NY, and they were the ones that made the stressful JC life so much better and are the reason that I want to go to school. I’m really glad to have them in my life. And I think I have a very awesome class, I cannot imagine myself being in another class with other ppl. Though we have some rough times in between, but I think things are alright now and we’re ready to brace through another year together(:

I’m not forgetting my good old friends. I’m really glad that even we went to different schools and have our own group of friends now, we are still missys and that we try to make time out for gatherings. Though it’s like once a month because it’s hard to match all our schedules together, but it’s the effort to maintain the friendship that counts! I really think that we’ll be friends forever, and I mean forever. I don’t know what my life would be like without them, because they were the ones that stayed with me through the thick and thins.

2010 has ended the way it should, unexpectedly. I was wondering if I’ll ever really get out from the past, and start a new year fresh. But everything that should have ended has ended and everything that should have been resolved has been resolved. I’m ready to move on now and I’m ready for whatever that’s going to come in 2011 because I’m stronger than how I was in the past one year.

2011, here I come.

On One Knee

2010-12-31T01:39:00.004+08:00

Wanted to go swimming with Jasmine in the morning, but the swimming complex was closed due to some reasons which i don't know what it is. Sian ttm. So we went to cwp and civics for awhile and went home after that. Went for work and witnessed a marriage proposal today! I've never seen one real life before, but only on television. The guy started by playing the guitar and singing a song that he wrote himself to his girlfriend. It's really really sweet. I'd melt if a guy does that for me, lol. Then he asked her to find smth in the box and then he took out the ring, kneeled down and proposed. And of course, the girl said yes. Omg, Hoiching and me were like squealing all the way like some little girls, lol.

It's alr the last day of 2010! :O

Day Ten: One Confession
I don't know what confession to make so i'll just make a very stupid one. Actually, i don't really like to bathe, because i'm lazy to do so sometimes. But i still do bathe lah ok! HAHA.

The Boat Of Dreams

2010-12-30T02:36:00.003+08:00

Stayed at home the whole day and went for piano lesson in the evening. Then i had dinner with my family, and then we watched tv after that. It's been quite a long time since we ate and watched tv together, now that i think back.
Anw, i just finish watching Titanic. It's really a very very very good movie. The movie displayed all human characteristics from good to bad. And it's soooo sad :( It must have been terrifying to see ppl dying infront of you and not knowing if you'll live or not.

Day Nine: Two Smileys That Describe Your Life Right Now
1. :D
2. :/

Half Awake

2010-12-29T02:36:00.005+08:00

Went swimming with Jasmine in the morning. It's really really cold. I was shivering even in the water. Swam for awhile then went to cwp for mac and thn i went to work. Work ended at 1am today. Tired ttm. I've a new goal now, which is to try all the cocktails before quitting, haha=x

Day Eight: Three Turn Ons

1. Smiles & Laughters

2. Windy Days

3. Good moods

ache-eee-eller-eller-ooh

2010-12-28T02:32:00.006+08:00

I'm always still up at this kind of unearthly hour. My body clock is always screwed up during the holidays. I complain about having little sleep when having school. But when it's the holidays, i don't get much sleep also because i sleep at 3/4am, which is later than school days. Lol, ironic much. Anw, today i came home and got a present from my sister! It's a top and i like it very much :D

I'm so broke broke broke now, tell me how how how?

Day Seven: Four Turn Offs

1. Really petty ppl who make a mountain out of a molehill

2. Having sudden moodswings

3. Braggers

4. Being forced to do things i don't want to do

This Christmas

2010-12-27T00:52:00.015+08:00

Went out with missys on the 22nd to celebrate christmas early. All of us never went to haji lane before, so we decided to go there for something new. I think it's quite a cool place cause it's got an old school feel and has a lot of unique shops. We walked aroud for awhile to find a place for dinner and we found blu jazz cafe. It's a really nice cafe with nice food and ambience.

Had our gift exchange session there too. And this year, all of us got presents that were suitable for us! I really love mine cause it's so prettyyyyyy!
Then we went to try out shisha. Personally, i don't like it. It tastes weird and it smells weird. I had to keep drinking water to wash out the taste in my throat. And i think there's this after effect which makes you feel like it's hard to breathe. Another reason it's bad is because of the place, there's like quite many ppl and the place is just... not nice.

Went to bugis junction's starbucks after that to just chill, talk and take pictures.

And on christmas day, i went out with the jc peeps. And i agree with suhui, i had to think for awhile what to call us. Maybe we should have a name for us or what, lol. We went to somewhere in serangoon first to sing. I think the place is not bad, the song collection is decent and it's cheap! Yay, I found another place for ktv :D
Then we went to Heeren's Waraku for dinner. After we ate, we had gift exchange and i got Angelina's present and Zhenyi got mine.
Stayed there for awhile to take pictures and we made lot's of noise. But it's ok, we are helping to lift up the mood of the restaurant :D They had a hard time taking this pic because the top of their hat keep dropping down, lol.
Saw santa claus!
It's raining very heavily, so we were trapped inside Heeren. But we have nothing to do there, so ite we ran in the rain to across roads, across the traffic junction to Takashimaya. I think when we ran across the juntion, ppl must be staring at us. But it's actually very fun!
This is us drenched:
Played charades after that because we had nothing else to do, but it turned out to be fun(:

Today's work was very very very slack. I have nothing to do at all. Then after Hoiching came for awhile, the manager left. So we were on our own and we made drinks, ate and talked. We even tried out the mics and turn the place into our very own ktv! Lol. If only work is like that everyday.

Day Six: Five People Who Mean A Lot(In no order or whatsoever)
(Some are in groups because it's just impossible to list out just 5 ppl!)
1. Family
2. Missys
3. JC clique
4. My pri school bff
5. It's easy to guess